The day before yesterday, I began going to English-speaking school. While I waiting for my lesson, I looked at the teacher's profiles. They were all English native speakers, but they have various backgrounds:
one thacher came from the USA, but he said he was born in Manila and that he can speak both Tagalog and English. Another teacher comes from Australia, but he also speaks Vietnamese as he was born in Vietnam.
I was born in Japan, and I onoly speak Japanese.English won't become my native language. I'd forgotten the fact that people have their own backgrounds, and that they find their own identity based on each background.
These days, I sometimes think about my identity, I don't dislike my black hair or height, as I know that I'm Asian, but when I try to speak English or French, I find out it is hard for me to express my feelings in a European language. When I want to say, ' wow 'or 'woops,' and so on, I feel it is little difficult or embarassing, I won't be able to cry or given in English even if I could speak it fluenty,
I can't say why, but my teacher said, 'you'll change your mind when you can speak more fluently...'